Giving up

Sometimes it takes giving up to really realize how bad things are and how much you need help. I always thought giving up was a bad thing and askign for help was wrong. But I have come to find how much stronger its made me. I have a hard time letting go and once I did it freed me so much I was amazed at how different I felt. All the anxiety and fear I had went away and I was completely amazed at the energy I had. I used to wonder what was wrong with me and really wondered if something was seriously wrong with me as I felt like I had no motivation or energy. Once I let go and basically gave up I have had so much energy and been able to cope so much better its been amazing. Living in negativity is hard especially when it creeps up on you and you dont realize the impact it has on your life. Once you are free of it the results are amazing. I dont feel like I am faking it anymore and I am finally happy. Though I get the occasional relapse of letting the negativity get the worst of me I am trying to get stronger. Trying to not let it dig in and get a root. For now I will keep one keepin on and make the best of my situation!