Can I get on that airplane?

I HATE flying... I can remember being little an on a plane for the first time and hating the feeling. So I do travel but it is with great force to make myself get on the plane. I try and not let it stop me but I do have to confess to counting the hours it would take to fly somewhere.... So I said I would go on this trip and explore the possibility of starting a sponsorship program in the Dominican. The fast forward to this week.. one of the worst in my history. Everything went wrong and every insecurity I have came up out of no where. I would feel like I had just gotten one under control and out of no where another one would pop up. I really was considering not going on the trip. I felt like every time I turned around something was wrong. I realized though that if I didn't go I would really regret it and as much as it felt like the wrong timing I couldn't let me insecurities get the best of me. In my mind this morning I was saying I was going but really having very big doubts. I took a quiet walk down to the garden and spent some time weeding and praying and just trying to get a sense of what God wanted me to do. I finished weeding and went to look up the daily devotional that I do online on my phone and I opened it up and the verse for the day was " because a great door for effective work has opened to me, and there are many who oppose me." I literally started laughing out loud.. ok I get it... I need to go. So it is going to take every ounce of my will power to get on that plane tomorrow and leave my kids behind but I need to do it. That whole thing boosted my spirits and I came home with a much better attitude. I walk on the door and I got a text from my friend saying that they think she is having contractions and could I come over. I ended up spending the rest of the morning with a great person who had become an amazing friend and laughing, talking, photographing, and encouraging through contractions. They quickly welcomed a new baby into the family and it just was the icing on the cake to a great day and making my day a very positive one! I don't think I could have been happier to be included in such an amazing time! So now tomorrow is plane time..........